Back From Slumber

just when i thought i would just give up blogging, coz i've been creating new post and deleting it and then recreate it and delete it again, i managed to find words among all the emotions that i'm going through

emotionally i'm disturbed.

but beyond this frail frame of mine, i'm stronger than i could ever imagine

i think that's what i like the best about myself. i have the ability to suffer in silent, to keep all the pain to myself instead of rambling them to a friend. i don't gossip. i don't tell people how i lead my life. i didn't quit my job just because i hate some people who think themselves as more superior than me because they're the senior. i don't grumble when i'm exhausted. i keep everything in my head

and i like it that way

coz i depend on no one to support me

i cried in silence. i wiped my own tears

that's all

i'm off to work :)

Not Again!

marah btol la

nape ex ni annoying gle

npe mesti cari aku lg

u're long forgotten and i have no intention to be 'just friends'

sbb ko tu kaki putar belit

ko mengada2 ngn aku then ko ckp kt gf ko bnd bkn2 psl aku

end up, aku plak kena tuduh menggatal

pdhal aku x lyn pn ngada2 ko tu

ko bajet ko hot ke, aku asek nk layan ko je

aku x paham ngn ko n gf ko tu

dh caci maki aku mcm2 pastu ckp baek2 blk as if nothing happen

n ko plak, pesal nk cari aku?

aku try jd kwn ko jp

ko tgok la pe ko buat

sume aib ko as my ex, aku simpan

tp ko, sume aib aku ko nk canang kt org

ko dh bgos sgt kn?

dh tu, skrg cari aku blk npe?

nk suruh gf ko tuduh aku mcm2 lg ke?

tlg la bg aku hidop ngn tenang

leave me alone

Difficult Me

i do have feelings that people sometimes have a hard time when they are trying to give me advice
it's not that the advice is no good or the people didnt mean well
maybe i just love to think that i was the one who was victimized in many situations
and if the advice didnt see the situations the way i wanted them to be seen
i just couldnt accept it

but i do think about it

and i really would like to thank the people that care enough about me and my problems

but i think, it is better for me to keep my problems to myself
it's not worth it to drag everyone into it

thanks again :)

WooHoo~

practical days are over!

no more sleepless night!

hoorah!

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but many things came up lately

i'm worried

i'm scared

but i'm trying hard to be strong for them

they need me

Salam Lebaran

tahun ni mmg x meriah. lg2 ngn ketiadaan sorg adek aku tu.
bgn tido pagi ni ngn penuh keliatan.
kalau ikot ati, aku nk tros tarik selimut sampai pkol 12
mata berat je walaupn smlm tido pkol 1030pm
tp takot kena bebel pagi2 syawal ni so g jela mandi

dah mandi, tros la pakai bju rye aku
bju ni kire bju raya gak la sbb bru 2 kali pakai. hehe
simpul pnye simpul, kain tu belahannye agak tinggi plak
adeyh
riso mak marah
hahaha
dh la semalam sedap je kena perli sbb rambut karat aku ni

pastu breakfast n sesi berfoto bersama keluarga
ni aktiviti feveret mak
dr kecik sampai besar mesti nk tangkap gambar raya
so nnt2 la upload kt facebook

pastu adek msg, cakap die dh sampai malaysian hall
mam roti canai je katenye sbb ramai sgt org
xder mood nk mam byk2
then die call
first time dgr sore die after 6months die kt OZ
rindu plak. hahaha
mak cakap die dh tukar style rambot
'japanese rebonding' - apakah?
mungkinkah semakin kacak?
hahaha

pastu layan baby plak
x abes2 ngn pelat die
dh 8 tahun pn still x btol lg ckpnye
mak ckp die mnje sgt dats y la jadi cmtu
(dan akulah tukang memanjakn die)
die kn baby intan payung pengarang jantungku
chomel je die arini ngn kebaya merahnye

ok
tu jela

nak g mam kueh rye lg la
tahun ni takder persaingan merebut tart nenas
hohoho

selamat hari raya to all
maaf zahir dan batin!

Judge me and I'll prove u wrong

its been awhile since i stopped adding guys into my ym and ms
but i let quite a number of them in my fb
and it sucks
they're definitely stalkers
they added me in ym without telling me who they are or having the courtesy of asking me whether it was alright to just suddenly added me
but, out of curiosity, i approved them anyway
i dont mind that much
but i'm tired of being judged by them as nothing but a pretty face
and that i have everything easy
(i'm not pretty btw, i'm photogenic. don't be fooled)
that really pissed me off
as if i care of nothing in this world, except shopping, clothes, make up and boys
as a matter of fact, im not vain. and i'm definitely not shallow
i shop when i had the money, and most of the time, i don't
i seldom use make up (coz i dont like to wash them off once i came home)
i'm messy most of the time
i'm a loner, unfriendly and not popular
and i dont think much about boys (girls, tho, are a different story)
also, i don't fall for pretty people with no brain
so there
stop being the judges

Don't judge a book by its cover

kadang2 nmpak org tu cm baek sgt, their words seem so very true, so full of kindness and understanding

tapi tu tak semestinye die yg sebenar. kadang2 just facade je

F*!

apart from few people yg i know, i never gonna trust anyone ever again